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| you came into my life, without fanfare. that morning when i first met you, it was love at first sight. you warmed up to me quickly, like we've knew each other already so well beforehand. your sad guilty eyes so adorable and impossibly attractive while your personality could only define you as a charmer. we all fell in love with you. couldn't say the same when you started to do your business on his expensive carpet, or mischievously chewing up our belongings. yet we still loved you all the same. there was always this nagging thought at the back of my mind- if you were here to stay. next to my fear of worms, i hate losing my loved ones so much. honestly it's this trepidation... hate developing feelings for something or someone, and only to be robbed of that something thereafter. who would replace that gaping emptiness when i'm still reeling from the state of misery. is it fair to me? fear translated into anger to mask my insecurities... you'd go and probably not come back in the coming years.. you'd leave like you never existed. life'll go back to normal, i guess. i'll still head to work, complete my degree, be myself, come home to a much quieter abode. you're leaving soon, yet you have no idea. i'm watching you silently, feeling slightly sour & completely helpless. you still have yet to finish the snacks linda (who can actually be considered your godmommy) bought you. i forgetfully threw one pack on the bed, and you began to 'sit' and 'paw' the bedframe. hah, only you are capable of this... i told him that i'll get another of your kind and call it lex too. but i kinda figured out there can never be another you. i hope you'll miss us when you're there, baby. cuz we'll never forget you. | | |
| Hopefully, Christmas this year will be filled with: Loved ones, happy moments, good food, turkey! please!, wine.. and vodka thereafter :p, pretty cocktail dresses, good cool weather, a healthy me throughout the festive season please, lotsa $$$ of cuz... K that's about it. Don't really care about the presents anymore actually, so won't be drawing up a wishlist. (You're cordially invited to approach and ask me though, my darling girlssss hahah..) Rather have the chance of spending quality time with the loves. Happy! | | |
| You,
You,
 You,
And all of you?
 Daddykins finally decided we will visit Sitex next week to get a new camera. So I've been living with my 2MP iphone camera, not complaining though. DJ is back for a week, gonna spend more time with her before she goes back! EJ's ROM in 3 days... It feels too sudden too fast, seems like I haven't spent enough time with her to let her go just yet. Hmm. | | |
| Had the best weekend for a long time coming. It was spent talking about things that didn't make sense, snuggling in bed with Mr Mootie, watching a DVD, spending some quiet time over brunch and wine. No wars to fight, all peace and quiet, and love. I like. | | |
| The night is calm and serene. We're all engrossed in our own world, having issues to settle, ways to amend. I wouldn't want to be somewhere else, this time. I'm at peace with myself, in my little dream room, talking to my online diary. Too many 'lessons learnt' just in the span of a week. I felt the anguish from a friend who suffered the loss of her dear dad. I vented my work stress on a loved one and only through that few minutes of heated exchanges, I realised how much he cared. I realised I could do so much more for myself and others. If it'll come, it would. If he'd stay, he would. 
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